Friday, July 30, 2010

I shot the Negro! I shot the Negro!

Get supervised! Get a life!

SEPT. 2001: The world is in bad shape and its rats are at it again. Having seen their mighty industries and unsurpassable military might fail to bring them utopia, they turn around and bare their fangs at their perennial victims who want nothing more than a place in the sun. Yes they drop on all fours and debase themselves further.

Compared to those ones, the dodo was a brave beast – for she accepted her fate and only hid her head in shame and waited for the consequences of its faulty design! Not so those who floundering in their folly revert to monkey chants making monkeys of themselves. I truly wish I could help which is why I am sitting behind this tired old desk trying to make sense of it all…

The Rats of ‘Big Shady’ find their every conclusion about their superior way mocked by those whose nirvana was disturbed by the rapacious greed of their own ancestors and like all failed societies, resort to well trodden paths by first selecting docile scapegoats.

The Rats of ‘Big Shady’ were becoming good neighbours I concede but their ranks have been swelled by the scum of the erstwhile second-world who think their passport to the great western way is to bash the Negro (who is that? Have you seen one lately?). I can only admonish them: “You spent the whole of the last century emerging from the yoke of oppression – you have lost precious time and you will loose yet some. Get Supervised!”

In the fall of 2001 I watched a pop video, which was the rave of the whole of Russia and possibly central Europe.

It went something like:

“Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! I killed the Negro! I killed the Negro”

I sat torn between two emotions and bowed my head in morbid shame – and sorrow – that I who has steadfastly sought the face of God and noble behaviour most days of my life should have to occupy the same planet as these persons whose lack of form has no suitable adjective!!

OK! Boris,

You killed the Negro?

Good for you.

God bless you.

Now pick up the pieces of your sodden life

and move Boris!

Get a life.

Get supervised

Here lies the crux of the matter:

The suffering westerner and the unsupervised erstwhile slaves - recently freed from the yoke of communism have been lied to all their lives. Those whose resilience staggers the mind are those who will save them from themselves. My grandfather told his sons this: "Fear the man who has one goal only which is: To prove he is superior to you who thinks you are superior to him for he never loses his mind! He wears you down and beats you with every thing that he is: even his smile and His swagger, his speed when he's fast, and his slows when he's slow...It is in their genes - which spawned yours, and they are uniquely in the position to be your messiah. Thank God for them. They are the meek and as the bible puts it, they shall inherit the earth!"

Goodnight.

PS

You may continue your monkey chants, I shall quote Diogenes. When asked are you not bothered that people laugh at you? He answered “Jackals laugh at people all the time but people pay no heed. Why should I?”

My dut y as a writer is done.

Don Kenobi Sept-2001

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

SUNSET

SUNSET

Generously splashing orange across the horizons and far beyond,

Painting an endless tail of wonder, photon by photon,

The far away images I commune with in solitude

are snatched from my sight by the gently settling dusk

It is the sun which has betrayed me.


It is Sunset!

Your laws are steadfast!

I am overwhelmed.....

.....What a grand show that sunset was!

Thank you Father

+++

DK Summer 1987 (Ewekoro)

Monday, July 26, 2010

Dear Sir (Letter to GEJ)

Dear GEJ Sir,
Let us concession the roads. Companies should bid for stretches of highway in bundles of say 100 km. They will manage it for a period of say 3-5years, when there will be another round of bidding. As incentive, These companies w
ill have a portion of the initial payments for license released to them - based on performance: Repairs, number of accidents, even security - robbery attacks.
Instead of having civil servants sitting n the ministry of works, they should have designations like "supervisor Lagos-Benin" "Supervisor Abuja-Lokoja" These supervisors will have their teams and they will be in effect contract Holders - supervising the performance of the companies...
That way we know who is not doing their job.
A top journalist said: the Lagos Benin road is worse than any road in Afghanistan. I have not been to Afghanistan. But we should consider these sentiments as evidence of failed government. We believe you can make a difference Mr. President. Best wishes. Your fellow citizen.
Obi

WHAT WAS A LIBRARY?

What was a Library?
Libraries in Europe and elsewhere I hear are grappling with their roles for the future in the new light shed by the information age where information is available at @ the speed of light [1][1]
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Here in Africa, we have to explain to our kids what libraries used to be – considering that Libraries in their present state or form are barely recognizable by some of us who came of age in the early seventies.

Let us ask ourselves again: What is a library?
A library is a place in which literary and artistic materials, such as books, periodicals, newspapers, pamphlets, prints, records, and tapes, are kept for reading, reference, or lending. A collection of such materials, especially when systematically arranged could be referred to as a library, so could a room in a private home for such a collection or an institution or foundation maintaining such a collection.
A library could also be a commercial establishment that lends books for a fee, a series or set of books issued by a publisher or a collection of recorded data or tapes arranged for ease of use.

Why do we need libraries?
Frankly, this is one of those questions about which it is said: "if you have to ask the question, you wouldn't understand the answer"
I will like to talk about a few libraries which molded my life and to which I owe a debt of gratitude.
The first library I remember was in the early seventies in my house. My Dad a civil servant with the ministry of education had bought 12 volumes of very heavy books which I could barely lift – bound in beautiful red cloth-like material. These books I have never forgotten and being a very considerate human being I managed to appropriate just 4 of the 12 volumes to myself and that only after the demise of my Dad. I thus left 8 hoping that they shine light into the willing head, heart and mind of some fortunate child or teen. Those books became even dearer to me when in my adult hood through an internet search I realized they had not been written for people of my ilk. Being a child, I'd failed to notice the subtle racist innuendos.
So much for my first library which imbued in me a lifelong love for leisurely, unforced studying. Memories of my next library are shadowy. This was in my primary school in Benin-City. We had a library and all I remember doing there was watching a demonstration of how to make ice-cream. I remember the gentleman whipping egg with a whisk so thoroughly that when he turned the bowl containing the egg upside down, the whipped egg defied gravity! I don't recall ever going into that library for anything else!

My next library was the State library on the Oba Market road opposite what was then the Kingsway store. I remember the very kind lady in charge of the library Mrs. Oronsaye probably because she had a son at Edo College where I schooled or maybe her genuine interest in kids made us like her. At that library, which we went to on Saturdays, when we were on holidays, I do not remember reading much there but I remember the joy I got watching old Black and White Laurel and Hardy comedy sketches. Ironically in this age of cable TV and internet, I do not recall ever seeing another Laurel and Hardy movie. Thus when John Kerry and John Edwards were referred to as Laurel and Hardy, I understood! A tiny inconsequential facet of knowledge but important all the same.

Before continuing with the Libraries of my life, I will like to go back to the question "Why do we need libraries?
I will drop one answer right here: “We need libraries to speed up globalization. ..” and if you need to ask what globalization is.....


Back to the great libraries of my life.
We had a lovely library at Edo College. Here I would bury myself and read about the stars and the celestial bodies. I read books by Robert Moore? I could check his name up in one second on the internet but will leave it at that. All I know was that his last name was Moore. This writer did more to fashion my sense of being and my relationship with the universe than probably all the preachers of my youth. I got to know a universe which responded and could be predicted perfectly by the laws of mathematics and physics. Whoever created the world was worthy of adulation. I often times would get so completely lost in this outer world that looking at the pictures of the earth from space, and determining the position of Benin-City, I would peer down to see if I could actually see men on the ground scurrying hither and thither seeking to do things big or small, good or evil and wonder what could be so important to people so inconsequential as to occlude the greater meaning of life. (Bribe takers and perverters of social justice beware!!)

The words of Christ had full meaning to me after this truly enlightening experience: “Be anxious for nothing” I never have been.

There was another library at Okhoro road – just adjacent to Eghosa Grammar school – this was a very important library in my life. It was government owned. I read for my JAMB exam there and borrowed several Buffalo Bill cowboy books. There was also the great Library at the then University of Ife. Here I read for my degree exams, made photocopies of relevant documents, used microfiche to search for documents and…very importantly was able to get lost in books from a section of the Library totally unconnected to my studies. For instance I read comprehensively about Cecil B De Mille the Hollywood mogul, several volumes I must add (while my Laplace and Leibnitz functions stood impatiently by – tapping their feet no doubt, probably with their arms akimbo!) I went with Cecil B De Mille through the ups and downs of his life, attended his wedding to the very beautiful Mrs. De Mille, and went on holidays with them; Cecil was a very handsome man and maintained his very good looks to the end. He had a very long and evidently very loving relationship with his wife. It was sad in the end to see such a beautiful woman looking so old, with hardly a trace of the great beauty she once possessed. Mr. Demille on the other hand remained handsome. It was also sad to return to the dreary life of mathematical functions and complex numbers……

One of my most beloved libraries was the University of Benin Library. Though never a student at that great library, I would visit the library during holidays and perfected a means of bluffing my way into the library – a practice I started in my own university at Ife – for I could be counted never to have in my possession my student identity card. Why people should be kept out of libraries I have never known – similar in my view to keeping people out of Churches. Why are churches locked at night??!!

At the UniBen Library, I read mostly Electrical Machines and guess what? I discovered to be the best book on this: an encyclopedia! !! I do not remember its name and will not mislead my readers but reading this book, I discovered that my university lecturer had a less than complete knowledge of the subject of electrical machines – but that’s another story.

I also at this library discovered one of the strangest books authored by any one. The book was “I must show you my clippings” and the author was Wopko Jensma. I suspected he was a white South African only because of a picture he had of a half naked white man sitting on a chair. It had to be Wopko! But Wopko to my West African ears was definitely an African name though I felt it should have been ‘Wokpo’. Again, Jensma did not sound like an Anglo-Saxon name neither did it sound like a Dutch name – not to my West African ears anyway! I was intrigued by his writings which were decidedly anti-Apartheid in 1986; apartheid was to Africans what Osama bin Laden is to the west today! I loved him (Wopko) and hoped he was white in order for me to love him even more. Sadly some 18 years later 2004 to be precise in the summer, I made a search on Google for my old friend Wopko and confirmed he was white but had a history of mental illness and had simply walked out of the institution where he was held and was never seen again! Was I glad to have known him? Yes I was.


Why do we need libraries? I’ll drop another answer right here: Libraries foster brotherhood. For if we study the same books, we may get to think alike and understand each other…

I was surprised that after I got a well paying job working on an off-shore rig, where I spent 14 days between tours, I found myself gravitating towards libraries on my off days!! There I was a young bachelor boy, financially independent – yet preferring to go to the library (the University of Benin one!) where I had perfected the art of sneaking past the centurions at its entrance. At that point, I’d found that books nay libraries were my inner temple and its portals the gateway to the information highway…….I knew this long before the information age and certainly long before the term Information highway was coined.
These days on visits abroad, I have walked past several libraries and looked enviously at people as they walked in and out and have made it one of my ambitions is to visit the British Library! Low ambition? Probably, but….
The British Library is the national library of the United Kingdom and one of the world's greatest libraries. The collections include more than 150 million items, in over 400 languages, to which 3 million new items are added every year. We house books, manuscripts, maps, newspapers, magazines, prints and drawings, music scores, sound recordings, patents and philatelic items.

Sneaking in is not an option. Not in these awkward times!! I thus plan to register properly, and thereupon make my grand entrance, and make the first section which captures my fancy the outer courtyard of my temple and proceed to adopt a row of shelves around which I shall do a lap of honor. If no one is looking, I shall plant a hurried kiss on a book. Any book and feigning short-sightedness will pretend to look closely at it - only, I shall be drinking in their smell.

Closing my eyes, I shall pick at least 5 books at random, and proceed gingerly to the nearest table and thereupon sit as quietly as I possibly can and opening the first of the 5 books, smiling, proceed to the content page and find out what I am about to know….

It is important at this point to note that Social and technological changes impact our understanding of literacy. Our challenge is to prepare our children for the new literacies (NOT illiteracies) of the future. And while we are at it, we must remember that the term ‘Literacy’ has been redefined and identify if we need to prepare ourselves as well.
Whereas Literacy was defined loosely as the ability to read and write, today, it is “the ability to locate, evaluate, use, and communicate using a wide range of resources including text, visual, audio, and video sources” (From the
The Evolving Definition of Literacy)

DK


Friday, July 23, 2010

Wopko Jensma

I discovered Wopko Jensma in 1986 at the university library in Benin-City Nigeria. I could not tell if he was white or black. I did not think he was white but thought to myself: if this crazy guy is white! He is the best man - white or black in South Africa. It is easy in these days of Nelson Mandela and Barack Obama to forget the non-person status of blacks across the globe - even as recently as 1986!! "I must show you my clippings" - that was the book!! He inspired me to write. He told me through his work that I did not have to write prose as wonderfully as John Steinbeck or Wole Soyinka to want to be known as a writer. Fast fwd to the recently past present, I remembered my old friend and thought: "Hmmm, where's Ol' Wopko. Time to find out if he's white or black" I now worked in Oil & Gas and the Internet had since ceased being a fad - it was a 'part of life'. Wopko you must understand to my Nigerian ears sounded very much like WOKPO...

Sadly I found this out: "Artist and Poet, Wopko Pieter Jensma disappeared without a trace in 1993..." I think I might have known subconsciously that he was white - because there was a picture on the cover of one of his books that showed the "JENSMA MOTOR COMPANY' - none of the workers standing under the banner was black! Yes I must have known he was white – I think I knew deep down that he was white and loved him for being South Africa's best kept secret…

Goodbye Wopko. You inspired me. You did.

Don Kenobi

Author: “of gods and negroes”

Dk@myncnc.org

http://lokinanga.blogspot.com/2010/07/wopko-jensma.html

Jega's billions

This has been my point for a long time:
Corruption de, but lack of managerial skills de too....
Jega!!
This is an honest man unquestionably - but how did he arrive at the figure. This may be way too small or way too much! A project management professional will tell you that - there is no way in 2 weeks he has performed a needs analysis and come up with a reasonable cost estimate! No way.
He has to collect requirements from all stakeholders - engage them - find out what is wrong with the existing voters register! Do other democracies use voters registers? How do they do it? Are there more cost effective ways to do this? Who could help make it better: Monarchs, multinationals, associations, NGO's professional bodies.... He can't just come up with a figure. We trust him, unquestionably but he has to be methodical!!!
(Poor guy!!)
'-)
DK

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

You think you know your country. Then you realise you have visited less than a tenth of its territory – and the last time you travelled to the federal capital territory was the first time ever. You never were so far north within the boundaries of good ol' country.
Sure you’ve been to California and to Paris – the centres of western civilisation (if such a thing exists). You think you know the world. You even can recite the Gettysburg address (not 100% but some).
So how is it that you know next to nothing about your country? Or of those who loved her passionately before you - those to whom no plaques or monuments in their honour doth stand. This book, NIGERIA IN CONFLICT
was written by one of such. This is a book every Nigerian should buy & read

I came to Nigeria in 1957 to help start the new medical school at Ibadan as Head of the paediatric department. Later I formed the Institute of Child Health with the help of the Rockefeller foundation and the United Africa Company, establishing a centre for nutrition research at Ibadan and clinical branches in the
regions.
After Independence I was asked by my old pupil, Dr Majekodunmi, who had become Federal Minister of Health in Prime Minister Balewa’s Government, to come to Lagos and help him set up another medical school there. Later still, during the Nigerian troubles, Ishaya Audu who had been associate professor in my department in Lagos and who now had become Vice Chancellor of Ahmadu Bello university at Zaria in the North, had asked me to come and help him set up yet another medical school in the vast Northern area, as big as France, and containing 30 million people. He felt that so fat the Nigerian medical schools had tended to turn out first class doctors on the standards of developed countries but not men oriented to work for their own people in the primitive conditions prevailing in large areas of the country.

Again I accepted and we have been working on a new curriculum which we hope will turn out as good a standard of doctors anywhere in the world, but also men whose practical knowledge of dealing with conditions in Nigeria and all sorts of medical emergencies will be far superior to those turned out by other medical schools.

During these years I became the senior children’s doctor in the country, really in the whole of the West African Coastal area, and in consequence I was asked to see the children of most of the leading Nigerians such as Balewa, Awolowo, General Ironsi, the Emir of Katsina and many others. This gave me an exceptional view of their personalities. When a father brings you one of his sick children, particularly when they are very ill, your relationship with him is very close and it is possible as a rule to see through the façade that most men carry in everyday life.

Also as a professor in the Universities, I got to know all the leading Nigerians in the academic world, such as vice chancellors Dike and Njoku and professor Joe Edozien, Dean of the Ibadan Medical School (all Ibos), as well s Professor Thomas (Mid-West), provost of the Lagos Medical School, and a host of young men rising rapidly in the medical world, like Professor Koye Ransome Kuti.
After some three years in Nigeria, I wrote a book A Doctors Nigeria, published by Secker & Warburg in London and under the title African Encounter by Scribner’s in New York, in which I described the country as it was under the British Raj before independence.

In writing that work I travelled all over the country, getting to know the differences between the tribes and meeting most of the Nigerian leaders at that time. In the final section of the book where I was analysing the underlying tensions in the country, I drew attention in a chapter called ‘The Cruel God’ to the worship of the cruel face of God practised widely in the past by the forest peoples of the Bight of Benin. This included human sacrifice on a gigantic scale, indicating a subconscious tendency to cruel violence in the peoples of that area which as we have seen lately in other parts of the world may prove the percusor of cruelty, violence and hatred by one section of mankind against the other.
Indeed I can claim during these years to have got ‘inside’ Nigeria and to be in a position to know the true facts which led up to the Nigerian civil war. I have tried in these pages to give a true picture of the events, which I have witnessed here, uninfluenced by propaganda, party or tribe.
The facts, which I describe here, may come as a shock to some people who have been blinded by the extraordinarily efficient Biafran Propaganda machine.
The facts I describe and the conclusions I have drawn are those of a doctor. I have no axeto grind or future career to build up in Nigeria. I belong to no Party, I am the supporter of no Nigerian Tribe or Region.
Except in health matters, which I have studied carefully and feel deeply about, I am not myself involved in the Nigerian Troubles and my only endeavour in
this work is to present the truth.
Robert Collis

Page 17:
"...From the beginning o the new hospital, there was a great deal of friction between Heads of departments and indeed everybody else. This was partly due to the climate and partly due to the fact that the staff were drawn from many different medical schools all over Great Britain and Ireland and in consequence
had different approaches to medicine, different loyalties. Some of the rivalries were very petty but made life uncomfortable all round. Then there was at that time, an undercurrent of friction between the Nigerians and the expatriates. The Nigerians felt they were not allowed to advance to high positions fast
enough, while the expatriates were equally subjective, fearing the loss of their own positions and putting forward arguments for maintaining themselves at the top, such as the paramount necessity 'to maintain standards'.

I thought I had come to help the Nigerians create a University Medical School for themselves but sometimes, it seemed to me, I was helping to maintain a group of young expatriates in positions, which they would be unable to sustain at home. When I showed rather more sympathy for the young Nigerian
doctors in their difficulties than for their expatriate colleagues, I was accused of being 'pro-African'.

The paediatric department consisted of a very high-powered group of young paediatricians. The senior lecturer (just appointed) was an Englishman belonging to the middle class whose general attitude to life is perfectly described by a heading in one of the English papers at the time concerning the strike of
the crews of the cross-Channel packet boats: - 'Continent Isolated'. The other lecturer, a South African, who had been classified as coloured although he looked like any other South African of Dutch extraction, was a brilliant young doctor of great promise.

There were two lady doctors, one a New Zealander, plump and very good looking; the other English, tall slender, and equally attractive. The English girl, was quite remarkable. She learned Yoruba, a feat that almost nobody else had succeeded in accomplishing. She ran a notable clinic for the malnourished
children of Ibadan with a patience and a love that will be remembered by the children she served all their lives. Both these girls had recently passed the highest exams in London and hence I found myself in no easy position with this group whose knowledge of the latest advances in biochemistry and medical
science exceeded mine and whose whole approach was different. I had been trained to diagnose using my hands and ears. They would not make a diagnosis without a complete protocol of X-rays and half a dozen laboratory tests. Even urines were sent down for routine examination instead of being tested in the wards. This might be alright in London, I felt but seemed very poor training for our young Nigerian doctors who would have to work in hospitals, possibly alone, certainly without these facilities.

At first, however, all went very smoothly. The new hospital was beautiful to work in and there was time to think. But soon the mothers of the Ibadan children found us out. The parents of the thousands of sick children in the old town heard of the new beautiful university hospital clinic and began to come in large
numbers. Soon the general practice clinic, the casualty department and every one of our paediatric clinics were crowded to the doors. Mothers began to arrive at 4 a.m. so as to be first in the queue with their desperately sick children. So far we had only one children’s ward open. It soon became like a casualty
clearing station; children died on the way to our clinics, in them, on the stairs and in the ward. We had to clear cases out so as to get beds for those sicker still.
Often we sent them out too soon and they came back dying. The frustration of the situation was awful. We were supposed to be a Teaching hospital with high standards, including the right attitude to research but we found ourselves treating an endless queue of children suffering and dying from diseases which need
not have occurred, and were completely powerless to do anything intelligent about it except sit in the growing heat of the day in a stifling outpatient department.

Only one thing sustained us all: the entrancing beauty of the Nigerian children, their complete acceptance of us as their saviours and friends and the trust of their mothers.
I remember once coming into the ward of the senior lecturer late one afternoon. As a rule his cold, deprecating, rather disapproving manner irritated me. Now I saw him sitting at the table in the centre of the ward with one small black person at his knee, surrounded by a group of others. Gone was the tension in
his face. It shone with a simple gladness.

During my first year at Ibadan one day a young man, a houseman in one of the other departments, came to me as I was leaning on the rail at the edge of the balcony of the third floor, where the paediatric department was housed. He was slender, not very tall and his face was youthful but possessed strength;
his gaze was direct.

'I want to be a children’s doctor and become a paediatrician', he said.

He told me he came from Zaria in the North, that he had been educated at the Yaba higher college, Lagos, at Ibadan University, and done his clinical medical work in my old school, Kings College Hospital, in London. We discussed ways and means while we gazed out across the courtyard below at the most splendid flame tree whose mass of crimson blossoms excited the mind. He said that he must get the coveted membership of one of the Royal Colleges of Physicians, and that as he realised that the examination would be largely in adult medicine, he had decided to concentrate on Medicine first. When this was accomplished he would then like to work under me.

As he spoke I looked at the youngman before me and felt in the presence of a personality whose manner was a most unusual mixture of humility and strength. He said that he was a Northern Hausa and that his father had been the first Christian in Zaria. I realised that here was a young man of complete integrity and a very high degree of intelligence, which was activated by a driving force, founded on vitality. Naturally I promised him my full co-operation and a place in my department as soon as he was ready.

This was the first time I met Ishaya Audu who was later to become vice-chancellor of the Ahmadu Bello University in Zaria, and one of the leaders of the new Nigeria….

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I have described my Nigerian travels elsewhere and will only say now, looking back, that in the years before independence I found Nigerians of all tribes warmhearted people capable of the highest and lowest human qualities. Generally it was the contrasts which surprised me most. At one moment, you would be discussing modern science or economics with a group of erudite men from the North, East or West in exactly the same way as you would be in Boston or Dublin; at the next you found yourself in the middle ages trying to explain to a closed mind that cows urine fermented with tobacco leaves or the burning off of the soles of the feet in the fire were the wrong treatment for feverish convulsions. One day you would be living exactly as anywhere in the civilised world, and the next perhaps visiting a tribe whose women wore no clothes at all.
What stood out most of all was the passion of the people to learn, particularly in the south, and very particularly in the Eastern region. Here there seemed to be a school every five miles.

I learned, too the devastating effect of the damp heat on human energy which, when combined with recurring fever devitalises to such an extent that the work potential of every body from the university professor to the messenger is reduced, or shall we say cannot be sustained form more than a limited period during any one day. Hence it is quite useless to compare work standards in, say, Belfast and Port Harcourt.

Perhaps the most important lesson I learned from the journeys in Nigeria was that it is an entirely artificial country born out of the womb of an international Western conference. It did not consist of a geographical or ethnological area.
History had not welded its tribes into one national group......(the) average villager in Nigeria cannot be regarded as a Nigerian first and a member of his tribe second.
Indeed his immediate family holds almost all his
loyalty, his tribe comes next and the idea of being a Nigerian national very much third.
During this period, I met a number of the most notable men in Nigeria. Each of these leaders spoke to me with great candour. Balewa sitting in his mother's house in Bauchi (he had just become Prime Minister) spoke of the desperate job it was going to be, when the British left, to hold the country together.
He spoke of the need for a strong Federal Government and obviously feared the power of tribalism in the regions, which might undermine all, attempts to produce
a unified country. He spoke with calm dignity but even then I wondered if he had the strength mental or physical, to last out the course before him.

I only met Sir Ahmadu Bello, the Sardauna of Sokoto once.
On the occasion when I saw him he was visiting the teaching hospital at Lagos and came to my children's department. Here I was introduced to him and we
walked together along the splendid corridor connecting the various wards. He was a big man physically and mentally, emanating an aura of boundless vitality.
He was some six feet tall with a magnificent headress of the turban and chin-covering variety made of silk, and dressed in flowing robes down to his feet.

He spoke cultivated English and talked to me in a manner, which made me feel at ease and in the presence of a leader of society who was interested in my subject
and knew what he was talking about in a more instructed and intelligent way than the usual great personage of hereditary breeding or leadership.

Since then I have heard many varying accounts of his exceptional powers of work, his feudal conservative Moslem beliefs, his pride and his bravery, not to speak of different stories of his assassination....

When I met Dr. Nnamdi Azikiwe, then premier of the Eastern Region, later to become president of the Federation, he exhibited his well known charm, but even
this and all his tact were unable to disguise his antagonism to the other Southern leader, Chief Awolowo. Was this just Ibo versus Yoruba, or was there something else, deeper, more personal, I wondered at the time. Later when I saw a certain amount of Awolowo and his family I began to understand that he and Azikiwe were incompatible, each with a mind held closed against the other almost for fear of losing their own confidence in the rightness of the course each had embarked upon.

On one occasion only I talked with (Awolowo) on political matters in his house at Ibadan. He spoke for nearly an hour of his political plans. His extra ordinary confidence was perhaps the most lasting impression I gained from this talk. he believed he had around him a group of men not only capable of governing the Western Region, but the country as a whole. He honestly seemed to believe that he could win the Federal general election. I knew very little about the internalpolitics of Nigeria at that time but I noted his overwhelming belief in himself and his party which even then didn't seem justified as two and two do not make five, and the fact that his supporters were in the minority in the country was obvious even to a newcomer like myself. I also noticed that while he spoke to me, a number of big men made bigger by their flowing agbada robes, lounged in and out of his sitting room, sat down in armchairs, nodded to the Chief, called fordrinks, ignored my presence - behaved in fact like members of a close society - 'perhaps a little like gangsters in an American film', I noted in my diary. He was quite charming to me and i find it hard now in spite of the Lagos High Court, which tried him in 1963, to believe in his treason plot that landed him in gaol. At that time the Western and Eastern regions were already self governing. That is to say, the Yorubas and the Ibos were in charge of their own affairs and the british Governor was no longer responsible for acting in matters of policy on the advice on his mainly British advisers, but now on the advice of his Western or Eastern Ministers. At the same time, the regional civil services were being rapidly Africanised, though the system of Government as it had been evolved in the British colonies was not changed economically or in any other fundamental way; only a new set of Nigerian civil masters took the place of the previous British masters. Inother words, the colonial method of government continued, the main difference being that the new Nigerian masters had not been taught the essential rules of a governing class - in England by cricket at their public schools - and consequently almost immediately turned from the path of disinterested public service to that of private gain.

As yet, however, I was too new in Africa to appreciate this danger and, as an Irishman, I welcomed what appeared to be the end of British colonial rule, imagining that what I saw in Ibadan, the regional capital of the wealthy Western Region with its tens of million pounds of reserves in the Cocoa Marketing Board, was the birth of a new national group within a bigger national federation. Only in health matters I was already disillusioned. In this field, I was able to see through the sham and realise immediately that if anything, the health services were worse under Nigerian directors than under British. There was the same dead had in the Ministry of Health - the in-tray and the out-tray. The titles might have changed, but the hierarchy was just the same. everything was run centrally through the'correct channels'. Indeed the new Nigerian medical hierarchy seemed to find the colonial methods of delay ideal for their need to cover up their own deficiency and those of the medical services in general. What surprised me most, howver, was the complete lack of initiative in the new Nigerian medical directors, Ministers of Health as well as their civil servants. It was obvious to anybody with the slightest sensitivity that the health services for the poor were almost non-existent, that their sufferings were frightful, particularly the children who were dying in thousands of diseases which were preventable and curable. These men had received their training in countries which had evolved proper medical services for everybody, rich and poor alike. They had seen what modern medicine could do but they were content to sit in their offices and simply follow out the routine of the old discredited colonial system themselves without even trying to make a proper health plan for the future. It soon became apparent to me that it was a waste of time trying to influence those incharge of the health care services in the western region to do anything to relieve the appalling suffering and death occurring daily among the children of the poor Yorubas. From what I saw of the other Regions on my my travels around the country, the same held there, though at this particular time, the Northern region had not yet obtained Regional independence and the medical service there were still colonial and manned by expatriates.

NIGERIA IN CONFLICT By Robert Collis 1970 Secker & Warburg London

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The Kosovo song

Take me to the place,

where daffodils and metaphors

Are part of the scenery,

Today and forever

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Did you know how hard I cried?

When she tossed a coin and took her chance

Not knowing, Just hoping

That in New York she would dance

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Are there churches in Heaven?

With Catholics

Protestants too

Are there Buddhists?

Are there Muslims?

Are there Orthodox Jews

*

Is there moon light in heaven (tonight)?

At times like these does heaven smile?

Why Can’t heaven be here?

Where we are

Not so far…

*

Why can’t all the wicked Men

Blow away

fade away

and leave the little ones

from both sides

to embrace

*

In New York she stood

She tossed her hair then looked around

Catching my eye

She said "To the east side to the west side Hey stranger where do I go?"

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Why can’t New York be heaven?

And the empire state the throne of grace.

Blessed New York

Good night

May those who come to you

find their peace